vervain13 | The Wheel Turns Yet Again

It is 4:35 a.m. EST as I type this, unable to sleep due to unsettling thoughts about our upcoming trip this week. We've been planning for months and are genuinely excited about going, meeting each other's families for the first time, and enjoying the first wedding among Don's siblings. A shadow, however, is being cast across our visit. Apparently, my youngest sister has become deeply entrenched in a local xian fundamentalist church and has made such involvement her top priority...even to the exclusion of family. I haven't seen my family in over a year and this is the first time I'm bringing Don to meet them thereby making this a seminal event in the least. According to Mom, however, Debi and her daughter may be making a brief show to partake of the celebratory meal at best only to dash off to church activities. In other words, even though Don and I have taken several DAYS off work to be with our families, none of which days I get paid for, she somehow can't manage to spend a Sunday afternoon and evening with her only brother and her future brother-in-law who are leaving the next day with no idea of a when a return visit will happen. This doesn't exactly generate warm feelings on our part. Mom and my other sister are not amused either at this display of misplaced priorities and irresponsible behaviour. What really pains me is that Debi is EXACTLY where I was twenty years ago...running away from herself. Everyone except her sees this obviously for what it is and is waiting for her to get to the end of the road and wake up. No, she isn't homosexual like I am, but the point is that she is doing everything she can to avoid facing herself and working through her own issues. And speaking of homosexuality, her daughter is one WAY obvious baby dyke, sweet as can be, and a time bomb with an indeterminate fuse length. When that lid blows off, all hell is going to break loose. Perhaps that is the reality check which will get enough of her attention to FINALLY deal with herself. So anyway, we are going to make the best of an uncomfortable and needless situation and do all we can to enjoy ourselves in spite of it all. What else can we do?

Grrrrrrrrrrr!!!